It's been forever since I've updated on Nutang! I got an iPhone, which means I can update on my mobile finally.
For the most part, things have been good. Another ammunition conference this week. I'm expecting for fire and revival in Modesto, California. Amazing things have been going down in my ministry.
Thestadiumtv.com, Thursday-Saturday, some of the services should be up.
School has been alright. I've been scraping by. Haha. I dropped pre ap calc cause I wasn't understanding anything and now I'm like an aide person on a peer assisted learning program. It's pretty awesome. The students there are so awesome and they say the funniest stuff. They make my day so much better.
My puppy is as cute as ever. That is all.

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I feel bad cause I'm never on here long enough to respond to people's comments.

Dear Nutang,
I still love you.

I could go on and on over what's been going on in my life these past few months but I'd type for hours.

God has been blowing me away every day and just breaking down the walls of fear and pride that I've built up.

I would not trade my life for someone else's, no matter how much money, friends, or material objects they had. God has trusted me with a dream so big that my entire campus is going to be changed. I'm not going to be one of those graduates that looks back and says "I wish I could have saved my campus, but now it's too late." It's time to get disgusted with my pride.

It's so easy to think that once we lay down something that we've struggled with all our lives that we're "getting it together" finally. But the truth is, no matter how righteous someone is, they aren't righteous because they didn't sin for this many days and they preached to this many people. Righteousness is something God has ordained to us, not something that we can earn.
Sometimes we think we've earned this righteousness and without realizing it, we've separated ourselves from the "messed up" people. If you continue to think you're better than the people you're trying to save, you're never going to reach them. Because you're just as messed up as them but you're too prideful to admit it. People only understand what they can relate to.
Personally, pride is something I struggled with a lot in the past. Pride:
- Won't let you draw a line in the sand with prophesy.
- Will always have you feel "fine". No good, no bad. There is a complacency of where you're stuck at in life.
- causes you to hold everything in. It seems like everything you keep in the inside is never expressed on the outside. It's all a big show, a performance.
- Will make you think that as long as you're doing good compared to the ways of man, you'll feel good.
- Won't let you have any real friendships.
-Won't let you admit that you need help or that you're wrong.
It's better to let your insecurities be known because the more it is known, the more and more pride has to bow down and remove its grip from you.
The constant struggle we face with pride usually chokes us till we give up, not letting us worship the way that we truly desire. The worshiper inside of us wants to break loose but our pride of what people will think of us tries to stifle it.
You feel that no one can get you out, but God is waiting for you to come to Him. You weren't intended to face this alone.
It's all a realization that it's impossible to be somebody for everybody. Doing this robs you of your victory and destroys the peace that God blessed us with. You get so used to putting on acts that you don't even know you have them.

What if we ran like God said we could?
Something inside of you said it was impossible but it's not.
If we could just release what's holding us back, we would soar like eagles.
God never asked us to carry these loads on our lives.
The only load he asked about is when He asked His disciples to pick up the cross and carry it.

If you're trying to wait till you're ready to let go, you're going to be waiting for the rest of your life.

"If you want to lead the orchestra, you have to turn your back on the crowd."

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